I stared at this blank page for ages.

If loving you is wrong, I don't want to be right. If being right means living without you, I'd rather live wrong than right. Am I wrong for trying to hold on to the best things I've ever had? Am I wrong just to be there when no one gave you hug? Am I wrong hunger for gentleness of your touch? If I can't see you when I want, I will see you when I can. If I can't miss you when I am here, I will miss you when I am gone. If you want something you never had, then you have to do something you have never done.

Why did you hurt me when all I did was care about you? That mistakes tie you here, aren't they? Just leave. I am afraid of getting hurt for the same reasons. Sometimes there are things we don't want to continue, but somehow we are afraid to end. Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which one to do is the worse suffering.

I already got more than I needed. Less than I deserved. My loss will be somebody else's gain tho. Why is that fear so strong? And why these feelings are so real? When you decided to grow, some people just have to go. My heart screamed not to. My brain whispered yes. Hope told me no. But reality told me to try. Someday, you will know that you shouldn't looking back. Someday,you thought it would have lasted, but it didn't. Someday, you will remember all those memories. Just pray lah that day will soon come.

p/s: if I could tell you one thing, it would be how thankful I am having you by my side. I was hoping I could do something about this. I am sorry I couldn't.

p/s/s: how am I supposed to tell them I am leaving when I don't want to go? Inside my chest, my heart seized..